I honestly thought that turning 29 would spark something in my blogging mind.
I haven’t felt very inspired lately even though a lot of things have been happening in my life. I guess there are things I’m proud of, things I’m ashamed of, and things I’ve surprised myself with but I keep coming back to the timing of it all.
There are billions of separate entities and lives bouncing around on this planet, trying to find their way, doing the best they can, and it all seems to run pretty smoothly if you think about it.
Take a moment to think about every person you see today and realize that they they all have a different story. It’s pretty interesting to think that everyone has their own past, their own struggle, and, if they are lucky, their own passion. Everyone has been through something different and the most amazing thing about these different lives that swirl around every day is the timing of it all.
It’s life changing. And most of the time we don’t even know it.
I think about the time I left home a couple minutes later than usual and came across a car accident just down the road. Or the multiple friends who have been in love with someone who just needed another year to mature and accept it.
What about the job that you weren’t offered, or the job that was just a month from opening up when you accepted something else.
Even the smallest things can change your life. What if you went grocery shopping yesterday instead of today? One of my best friends met the man she married at work on a day that had a 50/50 chance of her actually being there. Call it coincidence, call it timing, but either way it’s pretty amazing how the world works.
I’m not saying we can tiptoe around and worry that it’s not the right time for this or that but it’s something to think about.
People break up and regret it months later (the timing was off). People move or don’t move because it’s the right time or it’s not.
Maybe I’m being selfish but I always feel like when it’s time to go, it’s time to go, whether it’s a “goodbye” -go or a “let’s go!”-go. And I guess that’s a commitment in and of itself. Making the choice at a certain time to try something new and going full force into that.
It’s hard to live in the moment though when life is made for commitments (leases, loans, contracts, and wedding vows) that don’t allow for a lot of “timing” movements. I’m a big believer in keeping your word but I also believe that things change, new opportunities arise, and that we all have to look out for ourselves. What’s going to make me happy? I guess that’s what I’ve learned in my 29 years… we have to do what’s right for us. The time is always right for that.